Today i went to Jen's house, mainly just relaxing with cousins :) played ddr and some other games, talked, ate and watched movies, was a good day..did a lot of talking..caught up on stuff..haha.

Was texting Andrew today aswell, and he actually replied to my texts haha, was quite a deep convo..ish..tried to convince him of some stuff..hopefully he'll listen to me..
I was also texting Nick, he woke up so freaking late from his afternoon sleep haha..got home and watched the Inkigayo perfs...GDRAGON<3 was on oovoo aswell..but then Tze and Kamen left..and i didnt even know..then Troy left aswell..so it was just me and Nick, but he was on the phone...but i could hear his conversation :D haha~

...I really hope..that isn't about me. It just makes it harder for me to try and talk to you if it is..because i don't want any wrong ideas..but if you're going to be so upfront and forward about it..i really don't know how to deal with this situation..but i'm sure everyone knows already..so why can't you just let go of it quickly? so it will be easier for both of us..or we'll just have to stay like this..it's too awkward.

Labels: friends, love, music, summer

Last night i was on oovoo until 3something, talking to Nick, Tze, KY and Troy..wasn't really talking on oovoo..but everyone was having dmcs on msn xD talked to Tze about her past boyfriends and stuff..talked to Nick about relationship stuff..mine and Troy's convo was half random and half dead haha, and KY's convo was just random, and then he went and said this;

(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: what r u gna do with life xD
(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: ur short, u got fat ass, u got spots, and u got eyebags
(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: and
(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: yip fancies u
(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: not andrew
(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: or nick

T____T...i actually didn't know what to say to that haha. Whatagay. Then everyone went offline and i was texting Nick until i fell asleep~

Woke up around 11am today, heard my mum on the phone to my dad, complaining about how her hairdresser friend forgot to pick her up and take her to the work place to get a haircut xD then my mum went food shopping, and i got out of bed, went downstairs to look for food..but there was nothing there at all..had to wait till my mum came home, then i made toast~ was texting Kamen and Nick in the morning aswell~ Kamen's so lazy, staying in bed and just going online on her ipod touch haha, then we were talking about going shopping for school clothes and stuff~ and Nick texted me saying that he got woken up by the door bell, just to listen to people talking about jesus and god haha xD and he had no food to eat xD aww~ went online and talked to Crystal, Tze, Nick and Troy whilst watching some of the 20choice perfs~..started organising the shopping trip to bluewater~ tried to ask my parents if people could sleep around..i told Nick what happened so i'll just copy and paste the convo since i cant be bothered to explain it all again..

(15:52) `` Neek-Olas: how many people xD
(15:52) `` Neek-Olas: guys aswell
(15:52) - e m p t y ★: ahahs wait. lemme asl
(15:52) - e m p t y ★: ask*
(15:58) - e m p t y ★: omg shes fucking screwing at me now
(15:58) - e m p t y ★: -____-
(15:58) - e m p t y ★: my dad says max 3 =/
(15:58) `` Neek-Olas: hmm
(15:58) `` Neek-Olas: what happened
(15:59) `` Neek-Olas: on her period
(15:59) - e m p t y ★: eurgh fuck it.
(15:59) - e m p t y ★: now no-ones allowed to sleep over.
(15:59) - e m p t y ★: shes such a bitch
(15:59) - e m p t y ★: argh
(15:59) - e m p t y ★: T_______________________T
(16:00) - e m p t y ★: i asked her..and she was almost alright about it. but she kept making excuses like 'dad has to get up around 1 to go work' and i said we wouldnt be sleeping anyways.
(16:00) - e m p t y ★: then she said that she wakes up at like 8. so i said that we'll move up into my room
(16:01) - e m p t y ★: then my dad was like sleep in my room, and the spare room. max 3
(16:01) - e m p t y ★: and i tried to push it to 5
(16:01) - e m p t y ★: and my mum was like 'no. no'
(16:01) - e m p t y ★: but i asked my dad
(16:01) - e m p t y ★: and he didnt even get to say anything
(16:01) - e m p t y ★: before my mum started going haywire on me
(16:02) - e m p t y ★: like 'we've never even met these people and you're telling them to sleep around' and i said this is your chance to meet them then
(16:02) - e m p t y ★: and then she started screwing like 'we dont even know their backgrounds and what kind of people they are'

What really annoyed me was that they said it as if my friends are bad, and then over dinner, my dad actually went and said 'if you ever have people sleep around, just have it as close friends, since you don't know the other people they might steal stuff or mess around' i was thinking what is wrong with you, i don't even care that much about you not letting me have people sleep around, but it's how you assume my friends are bad when you haven't even fucking met them.
Then me, Tze, Nick, Kamen, Kevin and Troy went on oovoo~ was mainly listening to Troy's music and watching him dance haha, and Tze's sister was playing the piano and singing~ and Troy has completely killed my 'i don't like 4minute' statement..downloaded their album after i found out that the song that i really wanted to find out about was by them..and tbh..the songs on their album are really good, all except Hot Issue..still don't like that song, i find it ridiculous how they had to debut with that song when they could have debuted with a much better song. Washed my hair and showered..and changed my bedsheets..now it's hellokitty and pink xD but it hurts my eyes =/ Didn't do any coursework today..and tomorrow i'm going to Jen's..FAMILYDAY<3 haha, gonna be good~

So much has been happening recently..and i've been told so much..now theres so much i know from different views..but i guess the way i view it is simply how i interpret the whole thing..hope that everything gets sorted out soon, with good outcomes...

Labels: friends, summer

Woke up at 7am this morning...have no idea why, ended up going back to sleep a bit then waking up, then sleeping then waking up over and over...got up around 10am. Was waiting for my results for ages, finally got then though, and i'm pretty satisfied ^^

A* in Chinese
A in Science

It's the same as what Joyce got ^^ was talking to Kamen, Joyce, Florence, Carmen and Nick this morning..then went to Maisie's and was texting Nick..then he stopped replying..texted Jenny and Crystal, but they both didn't reply either -___-..
Played ddr at Maisie's..and sang karaoke~ until the parents took over and we went to eat..and i spilt the bowl of noodles..^^'' then we went and played poker, then big2, then ddr again..and then we gave up and played it on controller (Y) went down and had an ice lolly..then sat on the stairs listening to music and watching vids on Maisie's phone..parents were singing for ages..got home at 10pm~ really haven't done much since then..still need to photoshop two more banners..have until 4am to finish those and send them off~

Feel so..non-existant right now.

點解我成日避開? 次次知道有人中意我..我會避開佢, 唔同佢傾偈..
結果係我哋唔重係朋友或者係朋友不過唔係好朋友...奇怪呢?...

Labels: friends, summer

Today was quite rushed really...woke up at 12pm thinking it was still early because i didn't get a wake up call from Carmen..(wanted to go up central early and play pump whilst troc was still empty..but then when we go there, there were too many people so i didn't wanna play anymore)..ran downstairs with my phone in my hand and looked for the post, wasn't there..so i went to eat breakfast and texted whilst i ate, Karishma was texting me about not recieving our results, Vic was texting me about how he was tired in school, and Carmen rung me when i texted her saying 'Omg carmen you didnt wake me up!' she thought i was joking around when i told her last night to ring me at 11am and wake me up haha, after eating i went to wash my hair..rushed like mad cos i wanted a lift from my mum..but then she needed to get to work, so i let her go instead. Was going to be late anyways, so i took my time styling my hair and decided to curl it~ turned out alright but i think it made me look younger..T___T probably cos i tied it to the side aswell. I swear i waited for over half an hour for the damn bus, and then because of the diversion i ended up missing the train, and making Andrew and Jason miss it with me..sorry guys ^^'' played big2 on the train going to cannon street, then switched at london bridge to go to charing cross. Met up with Jenny and Crystal in traf, then Andrew and Jason went to troc, Crystal stayed with some other people and me and Jenny went to HK diner so i could get some 冻柠茶 then we went to kfc so Jenny could eat, then everyone came to meet us in kfc...then me, Jenny and Carmen went to boots, Jenny bought some water, i bought paracetamol and Carmen bought £63.something worth of makeup haha, and the points went onto my card XD so now i have 1044 points on my card that belongs to Carmen :) and we got these cute ribbons with a key on it for free :D went over to traf to meet everyone..played big2 for a while and hacked peoples phones~ then we headed to st.james park and sat around a bit whilst Carmen and Crystal pigged out, and Jordan downed vokda...and got seriously pissed..and it was only 3pm haha. He was so drunk though, standing up then collapsing on the floor, and talking so much crap, was hilarious at the start xD but then he got scratches and stuff from falling around everywhere, and he kept laying about and shouting and stuff, so we took him over to the side and got him to sit on a chair and tried to get him to sleep..but he just kept talking..then Jenny and Louie started screwing at eachother..then everything just getting hectic..Jenny wanted to ring Jordan's mum, but then the guys were saying about how strict his parents are. There were these other guys there too..earlier on they kinda ran straight over to us..knocked me over and i like..flew? -__- pfft, then later one of them completely dropped his pants to the floor? i was thinking whatthefuck?...and then KY liked my perfume so he kept smelling me hahah. Left at around 7pm as always, train journey felt so long..camerawhored a bit near the beginning before loads of people got on, haha..got home at 8pm..had dinner and asked my mum if she could extend my curfew a bit so i could get the fast train..but she was like 'no.' and when i said just half an hour longer she was still like 'no.' pfffft. so gay. came online and looked on this blog..some of the pictures on the layout weren't showing up because of exceeded bandwidth, so then i changed my theme~ i quite like this one, small and simple ^^~ now i need to make banners for the Cynosure You've Got Family project. Also really liking the song 여자가 있어도 by Brown Eyed Girls~

i'm ok even if you have another girl

it's ok even if you have another girl
whoever it is, it's ok
even if i'm not your one and only

my heart that's beyond repair
only knows you
even if i know how you feel
i can't do anything about it

my heart must be crazy
i like you
i really like you

yes (yes) it's ok if you (you) have another girl
it may seem foolish but you're my one and only'
really you are
it's ok, even if it hurts, i'll love you

the warm sunlight spills through
you are shining brilliantly underneath it
i want to be together with you and that smile
no matter who else is by your side..

my foolish head does not
listen to me again

even if i know that it's an unrequited love
i can't stop it

my heart must be crazy
i like you
i really like you

yes (yes) it's ok if you (you) have another girl

it may seem foolish but you're my one and only'
really you are
it's ok, even if it hurts, i'll love you

even though i tell myself not to go there, i shouldn't
my heart calls for you again
without a single sound

calling you softly (telling you to look at me)
i call you again (telling you that i love you)
one day I cry and then the next, I laugh
my heart can't endure it anymore.
if my heart didn't possess your love
this love won't end
can't you hold me one more time

the words that you can't hear, i love you
really, i only love you
yes (yes) it's ok if you (you) have another girl

it may seem foolish but you're my one and only'
really you are
it's ok, even if it hurts, i'll love you

Labels: camerawhore, friends, music, summer

50th entry...woke up just before 12 today, replied to Vic's text and got up, didn't do anything at all today..just 3 paragraphs of writing for geography...need the office 07 disk, hopefully Jenny remembers to bring it out~ downloaded music today, Brown Eyed Girls', Kara's and Baek Jiyoung's albums..really like the songs 중독, 마법 and 몰래몰래~ really nice tune and lyrics. I watched the Abracadabra MV aswell, so hot o__o Gain is so pretty~ bleh. Cynosure You've Got Family project gifts due on 28th! and all i've created is a lame wallpaper..need to make some banners later..going out..tomorrow? today? 27th :D and also getting gcse results! my chinese gcse..bleh, and hopefully my science core results will come with that~ i hope it gets here though, would be so annoying if they arrive late T__T..talked to Jenny about looks today, like how people change and stuff xD and talked to Andrew about Boys Before Flowers<3 i miss the SoEul couple<3 hope they have a drama or film together soon~ such a cute couple~ Kimbum & Kim Soeun<3
I need to go shopping some day..to buy school clothes, need new shirts and skirts..and hopefully shoes and a cardigan if i can get my mum to pay ^___^ need to check out matalan stuff haha, maybe they'll have some cute shoes there~

Tears flowing down. I knew it came back again.
Memories are dried up. I thought it would have been fine.
The precious message eventually caught my eyes.
Forgotten everything, forgotten everything
I knew I would have forgotten everything, the time is frozen.
The time is frozen whenever it rains.
And you come looking for me again

Memories have gone cold; I thought I have forgotten everything
Love all dried up, I thought I emptied it out

Your mini homepage which I frequently visited
is frozen, it’s frozen
I knew it was frozen
Possessed by magic, possessed by magic
When I empty [heart] with tears, you will come looking for me again

Time is frozen, stop
Hiding my affecting again
Dancing with the love in my dream again
To me, you are still full
Without you, what can I do
I am still standing here
What should I do, what should I do

Time is frozen (no tears left to drip)
Time is frozen (I thought I erased it all)
When I empty [heart] with tears
You will come looking for me again
Possessed by magic
Possessed by magic
When I empty [heart] with tears
You will come looking for me again

Labels: music, summer

Thinking about you constantly, worrying about you and missing you, I really, I was really hurting. Loving someone hurts and it's tiring but it's not something I could stop, going to you, I can't stop that. I love you, as much as the entire universe exploding, as much as the waters in every ocean drying, with my spirit burst as much as it spreads outward. I love you very much. 너 많이 사랑해

Labels: love

Yesterday I did some of my geography coursework...finished the star graphs and maps of influence..then i gave up :D was trying to do the shop surveys, but the pdf file for Canary Wharf shops is too confusing so i'll leave it for later. Tze's planning beach, houseparty and sleepover for tomorrow...my mum wont let me go to the sleepover though T__T so then theres not much point going..since i'll have to be home really early..last night i was on oovoo until around 4.30am, made a new account so we could have 6-way, but it was just me, Nick, Tze, Troy and Yip on, but then Yip had to go, so then it was just us 4..then the strip show started :D haha, got the guys to take off their shirts~ sexy bodies :D and Nick even showed a bit off ass hahah.

Woke up a bit before 12 today, actually haven't done much..just watched an episode of star king with no subs..-___- now i'm rewatching the last episode of full house..xD

Labels: friends, summer

I. Just. Don't. Know. I feel like i'm depressed but happy at the same time? thing just keep happening..something good, then something bad, then something good again, then something bad again. it's getting me all confused and i don't even know what i'm doing anymore. i don't want things to turn out how they did last time...so i was thinking of more 'just let it all go, nothing's going to happen anyway' but why am i not listening to myself? i'm not leading it forward..but neither am i taking it all back..i'm just stuck here..to confuse myself. I really need space...but still with some people close-by...i want to drink and let go...without letting out...everything's just compressed inside of me i don't know what to do. everything's always just so fucking hard. 感情冇得勉强..completely the truth, but sometimes you really just want it to change, wanting someone to notice you when you know it will never happen.

Labels: love

Woke up today and went to wash my hair...got ready to go out for lunch...was texting Crystal on the way there~ went to river view...ate, played ds, played big2..stayed there until around 6? then went home and went on the pc~ talked to Crystal, Nick, Vic, Tze, Jenny, Cindy and Kevin. Nick was trying to work out what my pm meant xD 'niga neomu joha~ neomu neomu joha~' he worked it out in the end though xD then he googled how to say goodnight in korean xD i think i ended up on the same page as him to find out what it said xDD was talking to Vic about dancing aswell~ he knows the Gee dance =O haha~ i wanna see! and i wanna see him dancing to Again & Again, and I Hate You by 2pm<3 keke, and then if he learns the guy parts to Taeyang's Look Only At Me, then we can dance together since i know the girl parts xDD then he was being hamsup! talking about Gain from Brown Eyed Girls like...all the sexy dances and stuff xD he was begging me not to expose..but i will..JUTLUI JESS! READ THIS WORRR! haha<3

- zoe~           ★        says:
*hamsup lo! stop perving over ga in!
-       『νι¢т0яя』&& jeSSie~ x3     【☆〃★】♫ ~     says:
*but i cnt help it T.T

-       『νι¢т0яя』&& jeSSie~ x3     【☆〃★】♫ ~     says:
*heh ~ guess so >< atleast im not still watching their vids ;D or am i .. ;O

-       『νι¢т0яя』&& jeSSie~ x3     【☆〃★】♫ ~     says:
*IM NOT STILL PERVIN OVER GA IN
-       『νι¢т0яя』&& jeSSie~ x3     【☆〃★】♫ ~     says:
*oh fck
-       『νι¢т0яя』&& jeSSie~ x3     【☆〃★】♫ ~     says:
*i mean
-       『νι¢т0яя』&& jeSSie~ x3     【☆〃★】♫ ~     says:
* I NEVER DID

Labels: friends, summer

Today was quite dead..wasn't planning to go out but then i went out at around 5..met up with Andrew and then got the train with him to charing cross..got there at 5.30 and met up with everyone else~ then we went to boots so Carmen could buy some hairspray, then i got some hair products too...3 for £10 toni&guy ^__^~ then we went over to traf to meet up with Andrew..cos he went to see his cwalkers~ so we met up with him..but then went to troc..but on the way we went to mcdonalds and some people bought food..and KY was eating a salad..with chips in it...with chopsticks HAHA. Went to troc..Andrew was playing MT3, then we went over to play pump~ KC played against Carmen, then Crystal took a go~ then my mummy called~ and said i had to go to china city~ so then i went with Carmen and Kevin. Got there and met up with my family~ had dinner...whilst texting Andrew and Crystal~ got home~ went on msn~ talked to Crystal, Jenny, Andrew, Vic, Nick and Kevin. Now im on oovoo with Nick and Crystal~ gonna sleep later~~ was a really..weird day..too much love talk...too much sum fan si. -__-''

Labels: friends, love, summer

Hmm..slept at 4am last night..woke up at 7.50am this morning...thought it was around 11 =/ so then i went to the toilet then went back to sleep again xD then later my mum woke me up so she could vacuum my room -__-'' did some cleaning..now my room is all tidy ^___^ looked at all the pics from wednesday ^___^ i look so weird in some of them..but they're still all good pics ^__^~ talked to Melody and Tze on facebook, then went on cam with Tze~ also burnt off a candle so i could use the glass container thing to put my stars in ^^ was texting Vic aswell~ i need to top up..online texts fail xD downloaded Kara's Mister and Wanna aswell..still need to sort out all my songs on my external hd~ and delete the pics off my pc hd..hoping that people are out tomorrow..so i can go out before going for dinner...need to ask who's out~~ talked to Kamen today aswell, she's gonna get me 2 cheer you up tshirts ^_____^ thank you Kamen!<3

Labels: summer

Didn't do much today...went on comp...talked to Jenny, Crystal, Carmen, Ken and Kamen on msn...was trying to go out...but there wouldnt've been much point since people were out at 4..and then having a drink up at 7..but i'd have to leave at 7..waited for my mum to get home so i could ask her if i could sleep over at Crystal's house..so then i could go out for later..but she said no -__- i knew she wouldn't..pfft. watched a few videos on youtube...and watched Andrew's Cwalk ft RANDOMNESS video from yesterday hahah, good vid :D still want to see the pictures from yesterday >< listened to more of Big Bang's japanese album..really like the song Stay, has really good lyrics too~ changed my theme on this..looks kind of emo..but i like it~ and it also makes the navigation clearer..since the one on my last theme was the pictures..don't know if anyone realised =/ watched an episode of burning flames 3..started wiping out my harddrive..so i mainly have my stuff on my external instead~ pc harddrives are partitioned..so one for compulsory&program files..one for temporary files...then all my other files on the external~~ hopefully my pc will speed up from that...

Can you feel me now
Take a deep breath and let me explain
All the pain that's been wreckin my brain
Gettin so close to goin' insane
And see you standing there
And the feeling's never gonna be the same
seems like we missed the whole damn train
Blame is all we have for us

And I can let in get in the way
Even if the love is the costly price to pay
Lookin' back life love was the game of cliche
Gotta move away sacrifice my heart and let you breath again baby girl

Everything is too late now,
The way she never spoke at times,
That our relationship was becoming solitary,
Now that I'm alone

Honestly...
Her being by my side was something I thought was natural,
The mail I sent; User unknown

In the empty closet,
The promise ring we chose together for her birthday,
Lays in the corner

Before the door closes, baby please don't go away,
I regret not expressing my feelings, want you to stay,
Although I come to regret now, I know it's late,
There is nobody who can take her place,
I want you to stay, want you to stay

The last words, yes,
They were 'Thanks' rather than 'Take care'
It shows it's the end, getting over me

It's the proof that I could not give what she wanted,
The key of the mail box, End of the story

The night will come in the room I'm alone in,
I can't see the lady who would be smiling in pictures

There will be no chance that I can forget you,
Baby please don't fade away,
You won't erase all day,
Want you to stay,
Because it makes me this sad, I know it's late
Her existence which I had to keep,
I want you to stay, want you to stay

Labels: music, summer

Today was good~ Andrew and Jason just managed to get on the same train as me, played cards whilst on the train..got off at london bridge and then went to find Kevin, went to buy his train ticket..Andrew went and took half of my bracelets, so now we have 3 each xD we walked back..but then we found out that Crystal was where Kevin was earlier..so we had to go BACK there again and meet up with everyone.
Crystal, Nick, Tze, Catrina, Melody and Ken were there..started having a mini water fight in the station xD then Jenny came~~ gave her the presents then we were just waiting for Troy..he came soon so then we went to get Jenny and Troy's tickets.
Then we went back and got the train to greenwich...when we were waiting we were just squirting eachother with water guns..then people started talking about Jason's job, so i rang up Emily to ask about it..got soaked by Jason T__T but then Emily didn't even know what he had to do..so then we just left it.
Got on a train...but it was the wrong one..had to get off at lewisham and then get another train to greenwich~ then we went to somerfield and bought 12 bottles of water..and then walked to greenwich park :D sat at the entrance waiting for some people, but then we started walking up..had my speakers with me, so we put some music on, and then me, Tze, Catrina and Melody were kind of dancing to again & again and nobody xD
Saw Vanessa on the way, ran over to give her a hug..but she went and grabbed my neck..and then i fell down T__T stupid Vanessa xD after we said hi to a few of them we carried on walking~
Went up to the temple area..put our bags down and went to refill water bottles~ i went to get Nick first, and drenched him ^___^ then Nick got me back and my back was soaked >< then Jason added on to it and wet me aswell..went after him next~ mainly got Nick and Jason the whole time, but Nick didn't really mind getting wet, so i'd just get his front wet then stick the bottle into the back of his shirt and get him wet neck downwards :D
The guys started to play football, then Giles, Vic, KC and Shakz came~ some went and changed shirts and then started playing football too~ then Carmen and Alfred came..
OH and then Jason ripped his pants! LOL it was such a big rip...he stood far away from all of us and held a bag over his crotch area AHAHAHAH, he was like that for ages..then someone lent him a pair of jeans so he got changed behind a bush lmfao xD
Andrew, Vic and Kevin made a cwalk video, and Troy and Andrew did some shuffling and Troy and Kevin danced a bit to Sorry Sorry XD then people were trying to do a handstand by the tree~ fail la xD
Then human pyramid! :D the guys failed and kept falling..then it finally succeeded, with me right at the top :D but i actually only had my arms on them properly..and Giles and Tze were holding my legs up XD then someone lower down collapsed..so everyone fell and were just squashed together XD
After that we started to leave..everyone got their stuff together..but the Nick couldn't find his bape tshirt :( searched for it quite a while..but still couldn't find it..hopefully someone else has it in their bag but just didn't realise =/
Walked down a bit..filled up water guns then went over to where everyone else was..buying ice lollies~ I got a mini piggy back from Nick :D before he went to propose to Giles with a haribo ring XD
Was talking to Giles and he was asking me why i didn't add him on facebook, but then i said that i don't add..i just accept XD then he kept telling me to add him, then Nick came over and joined in..said that it shows that you have interest in that person and want to get to know them better. So fine~ i added those 2 when i got home xD
Went over to the hill, and people were gonna run down it, but then they decided to roll down instead xD Nick and KC rolled down first..fail! xD they ended up rolling into eachother haha, then Nick rolled the wrong way and KC went into a tree XD then they tried again, with Tze and Troy doing it too. fail again XD and Troy didn't know how to stop, so he rolled straight over until a fence stopped him XD
Then they tried to go down the next hill..Tze stopped really quickly and hurt her hip from it..Giles went off a bit then just gave up? and hurt his elbow. Nick went off in the wrong direction so Troy kind of jumped on him and stopped him XD KC went down quite far..and then Nick slid down near to the bottom then started rolling again and pretend that he was there the whole time XD then those 2 had bad heads xD hacked Nick's phone whilst he was rolling down the hill..don't know if he's noticed it yet XD
Was walking then people were trying to decide whether to eat before going to central or not, but then people were going to eat somewhere else..so i had to leave since it was too late for me to go to central because i would've already missed my train to go back. Said bye to people and gave hugs~ then I started to walk to the busstop..but then i decided that i didn't want to get the bus so i walked all the way back and went to the station instead..then i saw everyone else there..but they were kind of far so i couldn't go up to them..had to cross over and get my train on the other side ><
Damn curfews..making me have to leave so early..i actually asked my mum, if Andrew took me home, would i be able to come home later? but she said no, i'd still have to come back at 8..complete fail. makes me want to purposely come home really late..but then she'd kill me and not let me out for a month T___T so gay. Just waiting for people to come online now..everyone's probably still out T__T and i'm missing everything..aigoo. Wanna see the pics from today~~ xD

Labels: friends, summer

Spent the whole day doing my nails..still haven't quite finished..did one style, with pink and purple tips, and a silver line..but then i thought they looked weird, and i found my nail stickers..so i took it all off and did french pink tips on all but 2 fingers, and put the nail varnish on the whole nail for the odd 2, then put the stickers on those nails~

Going out tomorrow~ get to see Jenny ^^ and Crystal~ don't know if Cindy lui is coming though =/ read on the wall of the event..picnic, football, waterfight and possibly cinema..first three are good..but i have no money for cinema T__T

Downloaded KWON JIYONG's solo album today!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GD GD BABY BABY! <3
Love the songs HELLO, HEARTBREAKER and THE LEADERS~
HELLO SEXY GUY-ido HELLO~ ANNYEONG TTO ANNYEONG.

Labels: artwork, music, summer

Finished doing my nails..nail art is hard...the dots went a bit weird..i did the silver line better on the other hand, but the dots and star was really messed up..so i just got the pic of the right hand instead..bored. Jess, Justin and Kamen should all be on their way to hk right now~ gonna miss them~

Labels: artwork, summer

Woke up quite early today..brushed my teeth and went downstairs and ate breakfast..back up stairs to go on pc..nothing much to do..started texting Jess~ and took off my nail varnish. Started my catch up of burning flames 3 Chrissi came around with her mum and brother, and they brought kfc XD ate some of it then went upstairs and just talked then watched more of burning flames 3 then they left and i went back upstairs..watched more burning flames 3..ate dinner, then carried on watching it again xD finally have the translations to wasteful tears, was waiting for them for ages~ still need to put nail varnish on now~ texting Kamen aswell~ and just sent my goodbye texts to Jess and Justin~ gonna miss all three of them lots, aigoo~~
LOVE&MISS YOU JESSICA WONG, JUSTIN TANG AND KAMEN YAU!<3<3<3

forget it.. we’re over. .
I don’t need a guy like you
if you’re going to be like this, why me
play around with other girls.

when the phone rings, you look at me
and tell me it’s your mom and answer it outside
telling me you need to go home asap
… you meet another girl

such obvious lies. Just shut it now.
why didn’t you tell me you have a girlfriend
did you think I wouldn’t know? Do I look stupid to you?
I want to let go of your hand now

forget it.. we’re over. .
I don’t need a guy like you
if you’re going to be like this, why me
play around with other girls.

you’re funny. Do you think you are the only guy on earth?
Grabbing my hand like that is useless
I hope that one day you meet a woman just like yourself
And become like me

Just hearing that you’re busy
Even If I missed you, I waited for you patiently
The text that said you had fun last night.. it came accidentally to me

I must be crazy, insane
Getting deceived again and again
I’m sick of it, your incurable disease
I just pity you now

forget it.. we’re over. .
I don’t need a guy like you
if you’re going to be like this, why me
play around with other girls.

you’re funny. Do you think you are the only guy on earth?
Grabbing my hand like that is useless
I hope that one day you meet a woman just like yourself
And become like me

I only loved you. The tears I spilled for you
I feel like they were wasted

hahaha you’re funny. Do you think you are the only guy on earth?
where would you find a girl like me?
don't ask me and get away
I’ll meet another men
and I’ll live joyously, freely day and night
without thinking about you bye

forget it, so that I can live like this forever .
I’m not interested in you anymore
do you think I’ll turn back if you cry
don’t even think about grabbing me.

Labels: music, summer

Haven't done much today at all..woke up a bit before 12..realised my parents weren't home..went on the pc for a bit then brushed my teeth and went downstairs to eat breakfast/lunch, talked to Justin on msn, and talked to Kamen aswell..changed the layout on this~ looks more colorful than the last one..last night i slept at 4am because i was trying to work out how to set the post links..finally managed to do it today with permalinks instead~ ate dinner..talked to Jenny..then went to fold the laundry..just need to put it in my wardrobe now~ i've had wasteful tears on repeat since yesterday, seriously love this song. watched a few perfs too..kara's again & again cover, was quite good. the dance battle between minji, nicole, hyunah and gain..minji and nicole's were the best~ watched 2 perfs of ear candy by baek jiyoung and taecyeon, damn..it's so hot :D and taek's in it for the whole thing~ yum. Also watched 3 snsd perfs, 2 were their genie good bye perfs, and the other was etude~ texting Justin right now, saying goodbyes incase i don't get to talk to him tonight..gonna miss you Justin! gonna wait till tonight to text Kamen and jutlui Jess~ <3

Labels: music, summer

Ha, my dream last night was nice, but awkward. Someone mentioned about me and Yip again..and i started getting kinda pissed off..so i walked off and hid behind a machine..(we were in like..another version of troc) when i stood up and turned around, Andrew was standing there..he walked over to me and made a crying motion and lifted his arm in front of me..instead of using his arm, i hugged him tightly and cried against his chest..still like that, we talked a bit..and he said something like 'sometimes things change' and i said that i don't even want to think about losing anyone..then he was just hugging me and comforting me. Heh, that's nice and sweet Andrew i guess. It would never happen in rl though..

Funny how two people can have the same profile to me, but are completely different. 2 gors, 1 rarely talks to me, find it weird to call/text/msn him..and i can't easily tell him anything that's bothering me..the other gor, i talk to him all the time on msn, don't call him, but i text him when we both actually have credit, but i can really easily tell him stuff, and he'll help me, or comfort me. But at the same time, i love them both, but why do i love the one that barely cares, more than the one that does?..

I know you don't read this anyway, so i can just write it here..maybe things between us would be better if you actually cared, if we actually talked to eachother normally and not only talking when we have a specific question to ask, or a specific topic to talk about..then the convo just ends. We don't talk when we're out, atleast..we barely talk, only a few words..and it seems like you try to get away a lot..if only i could have a connection to you like some other people do..

Is it really so hard for some people to just add others on facebook? I'm stubborn, so i won't do it..but i've seen these people so many times, we've talked, we know eachothers names, so why won't you add me? Do people really want to stay away from me that much?..

I miss you Kelvin~ you're probably already on your flight now..i was sleeping when you texted me..so you might not be able to read my reply until you get there..but it'll cost a lot? No need to be sorry about yesterday, the long hug at the end made up for it <3

Labels: dream, friends, love, summer

Went to Joyce's memorial party today..was sad at the beginning..with the slide shows, photos and speeches, but the end was better, when everyone was drawing on the balloons and putting down their messages for Joyce..rest in peace.

Afterwards, when we got back to charing cross, i went to meet everyone else...wasn't planning to go out..but i just ended up having enough time to stay out for a while..found Cindy and Jess first..stayed with them for a while then Andrew rung me, then Carmen rung me and said she was going to St James, so me and Cindy went there first..couldn't find anyone though so i rung Andrew and asked where he was..turns out they were at the entrance so we went back and found everyone..was surprised to see Vanessa out~ Stayed around there for a while..talked to some people, reminded Nick about losing my glasses XD he said he'd buy me another pair, but i didn't want him to waste his money so i said to not. Carmen and Kelvin came over aswell~ happy that i got to see Kelvin again before he went to vietnam, or else i wouldn't get to see him for ages~ happy that i saw Jess too ^^ but i didn't get to see Kamen or Justin..blehs. Went over to troc after..stood outside for a while..then went in for a few seconds then back out again..then we saw everyone else outside mcdonalds so we went to see them..and then stood around there for ages too..then Andrew, Nick, Giles and Shakz came back and we all stood there for a while..then everyone went to trafalgar and stood around the black gates..on the way there i got a piggy back from Vanessa :D went really far~ and she didn't drop me this time ahah, then when we were around the black gates, i got a piggy back from Cindy~ walked around a bit..but then Vanessa tried to tickle Cindy..but she wasn't ticklish..so she went and tickled me instead..but i jumped off before she did..and accidently hit Cindy...SORRY AH LUI~~ then i went back on Cindy..and Vanessa came again..and this time she actually tickled me..i screamed and fell backwards onto the floor..had everyone staring at me..aigoo >< and i also hit Cindy again T___T MIANHAE~~ messed around a bit there..talked to people..ran around randomly..stole Andrew's bank card :D but then he made me give it back or else he would go on about me and Yip again...but then i talked to Andrew about that...hopefully he'll take in what i said..thank you ah jut lui<3 later on me, Vanessa and Rex left..said goodbyes and gave hugs~ had a really long hug with Kelvin~ gonna miss him~ same with Jess<3 but atleast i'll be able to see her when she comes back~ love you Kelvin! have fun in vietnam! love you jut lui Jess~ have fun in hong kong! don't get too dark la! <3

Downloaded a new song just now, Navi - Wasteful Tears, i love it. such a good song, and Navi looks really pretty in the mv, even though shes just singing~

Labels: friends, music, summer

Got home early this morning..landed around 11.35pm last night..then got home around 1.30am..spain was good~ really hot though..now i'm kind of dark..need lightening cream =/

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Went to the airport quite early..walked around inside and stuff then ate at frankie&benny's until it was time for our flight..bought a pair of earphones at dixons before we got on the plane. Arrived in spain around 7pm and then went to the hotel, checked in and went to our rooms..put down our stuff then went back down to eat dinner..the food was quite nice~ constantly had a full plate of food~ and the desserts are really nice too keke. Went back into the rooms and unpacked some things..and played big2 whilst the parents went out.

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This day, we went to the beach..took a while to find it since we were walking..but when we got there it was really nice, the sand was really smooth and clean but really hot, so it was hard to walk on, had to run under shade just to cool my feet down. Swam in the sea and built a sand castle too, the water was really clear aswell~ only problem was the salt. I tanned quite a bit..but was still lighter than Fiona and Jessica, but they're naturally kinda dark anyways, went back to the hotel and showered and washed my hair to get ready for dinner. After dinner, we went to the funfair that the parents saw the night before..went on those cow thingys that move around and try to make you fall..i managed to stay on the whole time ^__^ pro much? ahaha.

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Went shopping this time..got the bus over to somewhere..then walked in the burning heat over to the shops, took pics on the way and stuff..got to the shops but most were closing for a break, so we only went into some..i bought a top from the first shop we went into, and i also saw some tshirts that read 'tell your girlfriend I said thanks' and 'remember my name...you'll be screaming it later!' when i saw them i instantly thought of Andrew and Kelvin XD wanted to buy it as a present, but i didn't have much money. There was a shop opened by chinese people aswell..the kind of cute shops you see in chinatown with cute hairbands and jewlery and bags etc~ bought quite a lot from there, then went to a café to rest. I had a salmon baguette and appletiser~ was really nice :D and the person serving us was nice too, but he either thought we were jap..or thought that japanese was chinese cos he said 'konichiwa' to us LOL, we went over to the castle to look around aswell..then spent a lot of time standing on rocks and feeling the breeze~ and throwing rocks into the sea ^^

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Went to the beach again, jogged along the sea then swam for a while, then just slept for the rest of the time until we went back to the hotel to eat dinner..I think we went shopping afterwards..walked to the shopping center and i bought a red&white striped vest top ^__^ was only 2euros~ saw a really cute pair of shoes too and they were on sale! but they didn't have my size T__T

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Went shopping again, but to a different place..got the bus to somewhere far away, then walked for ages to get to a big shopping center :D bought a blue outflowing vest top, cute hairbands, a bag and a tshirt~ was going to buy a pair of shoes aswell..but then i didn't since the quality wasn't that great and i was low on money..we ate kfc there aswell..was going to have burger king..but it was 8euros something for a meal O__O

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Went to the beach, same thing as last time with the jogging, then swimming, then sleeping. but this time we also went on the pedal boats~ rowed out really far~ went around for an hour then back onto the beach, went to the shopping center again, but played mini golf ^^

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I'm actually confused with the dates..so some of this is wrongly dated, but we went to a nice restaurant..ate pork with some really nice apple sauce~ at the end, the waiter gave us a free shot, i didn't take one..but drank the spares..was so nice :D peach flavoured, yum<3

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Went to the volcanoes with a tour group thingy..rode on camels..was driven around volcanoes to see it all..ate lunch..went to see a lake..back to hotel as usual.

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Beach again, did a lot of jogging, then walked to mcdees..expensive over their..and their default is LARGE. was so full after eating o__o they had lemon tea though ^__ ^ went back to the beach and slept for a while, then swam around..which turned into running in water...and jumping..and stuff XD then we walked back to the hotel~ went to the shopping center..bought the peach shot drink from spar..but it ended up being the wrong one..but we downed it whilst playing big2..and when it was finished we realised it was meant to be diluted -__-''

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Woke up, ate breakfast, packed, put luggage in the store room, checked out and then went to the shopping center to laze around..went to a cafe and played big2..then went up to play pool..the table was broken so the balls continuously came out to the front..meaning we could play unlimited for free :D played for ages..dads had games against eachother~ i played against Fiona..won 2-0..first game was real win..but the second, she put in the black xD final game scores against Tyrone was 4-3, me winning..managed to get in my last 3 balls whilst he was getting in the black, and i managed to win ^__^ had lunch/dinner at a restaurant then back to the hotel to get our luggage and get picked up to go to the airport..flight was around 8pm, got home around 1.30am~

Holiday was good, did a lot..bought a lot..but, i tanned a lot >< aigoo...

Labels: shopping, summer

Did more packing today..watched an episode of family outing, dled 12 eps for spain..wont be blogging for around 10 days now..hopefully spain will be good~ and i hope i don't miss too much in uk...can already see plans for going out >< gonna miss the cwalk linkup aswell..don't want to sleep..but i have nothing to do..blehs. nothing to blog about, so this is it until i come back~

Labels: summer

Spent the day at home..went on the pc for a while..Chrissi came around..just talking, played big2 and baked a cake~ when she left i just went back on the pc..the cynosure family project gifts were posted~ my gifts look so pro~ i wonder who made them..been obsessed with Navi's song Heart Damage<3 Cindy's back now~ but i can't see her until 15th ): leaving to go to Spain on monday..will be online before..i guess i'll blog then..and then see if i can blog when i get to spain..internet café or steal peoples internet around since Fiona's bringing her laptop~ still not sure what to do about blogs..i like my livejournal..also like this one though...depends if i can be bothered to copy&paste posts? and then see if i actually want to use this..or keep with LJ..or use xanga? aigoo..na molla.

something seemed strange as you looked at me without a word, so i blocked my ears
because the lip shapes that i saw with my eyes seemed to say let's break up

without knowing, tears wet my feet again
i was so embarassed, i hung my head
oh~ saying "please don't be like this. don't leave me"
today, for the first time, i cried in front of you

yeah that's right
you'll probably have to prepare that goodbye kiss
we're over. e-n-d, baby like this
can you move over? excuse me, miss
let's break up now. no mo' business
no mo' whips, and no mo' ices
i want to go back, back to my peeps, back to the streets
cuz, girl with two faces, just can't do it, girl
yes, just go. you're dismissed
peace~

because my heart is damaged, i can't even breathe
because it spread to my heart, it hurts so much i want to die.. it keeps hurting
even after going the hospital, i couldn't find the reason i was hurting
because my heart is damaged

all of a sudden, i looked in the mirror
looking at my reflection in the mirror,
saying that i'll cry just for one day, that i'll empty you out,
i drank alone for the last time

i told you, you can't get a playa back like that
though i can rap to any beat
i don't love with any girl
here, you're a nobody
i'm a tree stump that blooms flowers
but you ain't my flower
last bit of pride, pshh~ just swallow
don't follow, don't call me tomorrow
we're strangers, over
yo, taxi. i'mma holla

because my heart is damaged, i can't even breathe
because it spread to my heart, it hurts so much i want to die.. it keeps hurting
even after going the hospital, i couldn't find the reason i was hurting

if my body is damaged, it would heal
because my heart is damaged, my tearful illness won't go away
up to the point where when i eat, i can't tell whether it's food or tears
my heart is damaged

i hoped that your lip shapes aren't the words of farewell
oh~ saying "please don't be like this. don't leave me"
today, for the first time, i cried in front of you

Labels: friends, music, summer