Ha, my dream last night was nice, but awkward. Someone mentioned about me and Yip again..and i started getting kinda pissed off..so i walked off and hid behind a machine..(we were in like..another version of troc) when i stood up and turned around, Andrew was standing there..he walked over to me and made a crying motion and lifted his arm in front of me..instead of using his arm, i hugged him tightly and cried against his chest..still like that, we talked a bit..and he said something like 'sometimes things change' and i said that i don't even want to think about losing anyone..then he was just hugging me and comforting me. Heh, that's nice and sweet Andrew i guess. It would never happen in rl though..

Funny how two people can have the same profile to me, but are completely different. 2 gors, 1 rarely talks to me, find it weird to call/text/msn him..and i can't easily tell him anything that's bothering me..the other gor, i talk to him all the time on msn, don't call him, but i text him when we both actually have credit, but i can really easily tell him stuff, and he'll help me, or comfort me. But at the same time, i love them both, but why do i love the one that barely cares, more than the one that does?..

I know you don't read this anyway, so i can just write it here..maybe things between us would be better if you actually cared, if we actually talked to eachother normally and not only talking when we have a specific question to ask, or a specific topic to talk about..then the convo just ends. We don't talk when we're out, atleast..we barely talk, only a few words..and it seems like you try to get away a lot..if only i could have a connection to you like some other people do..

Is it really so hard for some people to just add others on facebook? I'm stubborn, so i won't do it..but i've seen these people so many times, we've talked, we know eachothers names, so why won't you add me? Do people really want to stay away from me that much?..

I miss you Kelvin~ you're probably already on your flight now..i was sleeping when you texted me..so you might not be able to read my reply until you get there..but it'll cost a lot? No need to be sorry about yesterday, the long hug at the end made up for it <3

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