Freaking depression yet still happy feeling. What the hell.

Appearance, it's such a complicated thing..but also something that people can't leave out. Atleast mainly from a girl's point of view, appearance is used to impress, express, and for confidence. I doubt someone would want to go clubbing in a royal ascot inspired outfit...so thats why people can spend hours picking out their clothes, and then styling their hair and doing their makeup. If you're dressed well, you'll feel better about yourself..instead of spending the day paranoid that people are looking at you weirdly. Body shape, something that is depression in itself. Of course everyone has that image of their ideal body shape..but it's a dream instead of reality, how hard it must be to get that kind of body, then maintain it. It's even harder when the section that you want to change the most, is something you can't do a thing about, like height and breast size..happens to be some of the things that guys take in the most. I need to freaking grow. Spent the night being partly paranoid, and annoyed that all my friends have big boobs. Damn.

When you find out something you never really wanted to know..hard to adjust to, right? Needs a complete change of thinking..and quickly.

Hey guy, attention! Baby, strong girl (Ha ha)
So listen to this, I got the chase
This is special right now, think you all that low
Hey guy, first one

Take it, want it, let me know it, it could be mine
You can have everything if you want
By thoughts, by feelings, it could be fine
Tell me everything that you want

Leads me to the brilliant lights and onto the captivating stage
(Tonight is crazy tonight)
Burning eyes that blaze like the sun makes me crazy

Look at me now
Feel it, so you can see my heart
My intensely, intensely, intensely burning love
If you hear it, so you can clue me in
Will you hold me like this, like this, like this

Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah
Let me make you strong girl
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah
Let me make you strong girl

Tic toc, tic toc
Look at the time that has flown
Nothing can stop, you’re an endless breath
It can’t be your time – your way or your play
I hope you forget all your painful wounds

Sometimes hot tears run down, I can’t stop it
(Even when it’s unseen)
Sometimes my heart subsides coldly, I can’t feel it, oh

Look at me now
Feel it, so you can see my heart
My intensely, intensely, intensely burning love
If you hear it, so you can clue me in
Will you hold me like this, like this, like this

Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah
Let me make you strong girl
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah
Let me make you strong girl

The love that left me, no more
Fate that abandoned me, thinkin’ no more
Never, never, never, don’t cry
Why eh, aim high

Never miss a trick, get on your dream
To my own world, more, more, more
Leave everything to me, will be all right
Today’s the start, party tonight

Look at me now
Feel it, so you can see my heart
My intensely, intensely, intensely burning love
If you hear it, so you can clue me in
Will you hold me like this, like this, like this

And i've been using the word jealous too much recently.

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