I. Just. Don't. Know. I feel like i'm depressed but happy at the same time? thing just keep happening..something good, then something bad, then something good again, then something bad again. it's getting me all confused and i don't even know what i'm doing anymore. i don't want things to turn out how they did last time...so i was thinking of more 'just let it all go, nothing's going to happen anyway' but why am i not listening to myself? i'm not leading it forward..but neither am i taking it all back..i'm just stuck here..to confuse myself. I really need space...but still with some people close-by...i want to drink and let go...without letting out...everything's just compressed inside of me i don't know what to do. everything's always just so fucking hard. 感情冇得勉强..completely the truth, but sometimes you really just want it to change, wanting someone to notice you when you know it will never happen.

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