abstraction; this is my dream

It was hard because the memories were still there.

2009-12-03T19:58:00.003Z

I've really been into Secret recently..their song 3년 6개월 is so good :D always liked Song Jieun from her featuring in Untouchable's 다줄께 and now i like her even more, beautiful voice, and she's really pretty too~I can't forget the time we spent together, the long three and a half years.It's been really hard. I waited for a long time.I'll let myself go from the painful times, my love

Don't forget me.

2009-11-30T19:27:00.003Z

Disgusted. I am actually disgusted with myself.Eurgh. Need to sort this out.I really never thought it sounded that bad until i read over it all just now.The impression people must have of me from knowing this. Disgusting.

Hallelujah, I'm falling, I'm falling falling.

2009-11-26T22:32:00.002Z

IRIS<3 i wasnt actually planning to watch it any time soon, but then i kept reading about it, and the ratings were high, so i started watching it last night. Watched episodes 1-3 in bed on my ipod, finished at 2.45am but damn, the drama is so good! Some parts of it are so tense, and then some are quite funny, and some so sweet and cute~ loving the characters already~ TOP<3 omg, he's so sexy

I love you so much and believed.

2009-11-23T20:59:00.004Z

사랑을 믿었어 너 때문에 너 때문에답 답 답해~너 때문에 많이 사랑을 믿었어Damn, i am in love with this song. After School's second single, it's so catchy, and shows really good vocals. Can't wait for the release of the full album, mv and the perfs...mv will be released on friday, along with the music bank perf, then there's the music core perf, and inkigayo perf~ Jooyeon looks really nice in the concept photos aswell, and so do

Please don't go, stay by my side.

2009-11-22T17:44:00.003Z

Hot, ikr? Joon is so sexy~ and Mir looks adorable trying to cover himself up haha.Aigoo Joon~ heal up soon! Then you can perform and dance properly again~Fighting!<3

Love like this, one love.

2009-11-21T17:47:00.002Z

MAMA<3 Managed to watch the ending live~ got to see the winners of the artist, song and album of the year<3 really happy with the results.Album of the year: G-Dragon (Heartbreaker)Song of the year: 2NE1 - I Don't CareArtist of the year: 2PM2NE1 also won best MV for fire and the best new female artist and 2PM won the best boy band, in 2PM's speeches they mentioned Jay<3 and they performed again&

The brightest star is always by my side.

2009-11-20T22:42:00.000Z

leehongki just with a few words he made me cry in You're Beautiful. His acting is so good, and he's so sweet, damn. I think i'm gonna go and rewatch that part, just because..it was that good.Started spazzing within the first 3minutes of episode 13, so sweet how Taekyung is<3 janggeunsuk & parkshinhye <3 they should be together in real, have such good chemistry~You're Beautiful is at such a tense

Wordlessly, tears spill. Wordlessly, my heart breaks.

2009-11-20T21:31:00.002Z

English Paper 1: Wasn't that bad, hand started to hurt in the exam but i wrote about 4 sides for section A, then 1 and a third sides for section B..Geography (DME): Was okay, would've done better with more time though..had to rush quite a bit at the end..and i should've read through my notes on the resource booklet in the morning..ICT: Easiest exam out so far, finished half an hour early, so i

Should've been me, it should've been me.

2009-11-19T20:02:00.005Z

Religious Studies: The exam was alright, i finished a bit early, then sat there spinning my pen haha. I wrote some stuff that actually made sense and that i'm pretty sure was right and accurate, and some of the stuff i wrote was just complete bullshit. Like for the 'Explain two ways how people show they are spiritual' I really couldn't think of anything to write, when it said spiritual, i was

I will promise you.

2009-11-18T18:39:00.003Z

Revision. Revision. Revision.Must revise until December 1st, then mocks will be over and i can relax..aish.

What time is it now? It's 2PM!

2009-11-18T17:26:00.003Z

After starting their activities as a 6 membered group, it has been revealed that 2PM’s leader Park Jaebum also participated in their comeback through an international phone call. Before they prepared to get on stage on KBS Music Bank, 2PM gave a phone call to Park Jaebum in Seattle and gave a promise to show their best stage along with their famous greeting.Group singers usually have their own

Please one more time, hold me in your arms again.

2009-11-17T19:37:00.004Z

Mocks Timetable1911098.50am Religious Studies1.45pm Maths (Non-calculator)2011098.50am English (Paper 1)11.10am Geography (DME)1.45pm ICT2311098.50am German Reading1.45pm English (Paper 2)2411098.50am English Literature1.45pm Maths (Calculator)25110911.10am Geography26110911.10am German Listening27110911.10pm Business Studies0112092.40pm German Speaking

Even if you forget me, my heart is always yours.

2009-11-16T21:47:00.000Z

leejoon<3

My heart aches secretly, then just a hint of your smile can make feel fine again.

2009-11-13T23:11:00.002Z

Wow, i must have been pretty out of it if i didn't blog with my mass of thoughts about the 1.59pm album o__o..listen to my HEARTbeat~ damn i love the whole album, all the new songs, the old songs, the remixes, the intro, everything.6 out of the 13 songs has jays voice in it right? and he's the 7th missing member..maybe the 7th song that comes out with his voice in..will be his comeback? ♥ and

I was waiting and while I was waiting, it felt as if you would come back.

2009-11-03T17:58:00.000Z

너를 기다리다 지쳐 미치고 또 하루하루 매일같이 일년이 같고 오~난 나 나 나~ 기다리다가 널 기다리다가 yeah~ 금방이라도 니가 다시 올 것만 같고 뒤돌아서면 다시 너를 볼 것만 같아 오~난 나 나 나~ 지쳐 미치고 난 지쳐 미치고 yeah~ I'm actually sitting here listening to the song trying to work out the difference between Jay's voice mixed in with Junsu's autotune, and Junsu's autotune. And i think i've found it.If you listen to 1.00 of the song, and 1.15, both are autotuned, but 1.00 is

It's not that I refuse to love, but that I haven't found the reason to love.

2009-10-30T22:32:00.000Z

It's not that I refuse to love, but that I haven't found the reason to love. I've been told, a few too many times to simply step back into real life. It's more on the lines of 'Zoe, stop fantasizing, watching dramas, reading fanfics and get a life.' People may find it stupid, but I think I know a lot more after really immersing myself into the countless stories that I wish would be my fate.It's

My Illusionist, will you take me into a world filled with timeless magic?

2009-10-30T19:53:00.002Z

“I just wanted you to know,” her voice began softly, tears filling her eyes as she held the love of her life close to her, never again letting him go, “…that no matter where life takes me, no matter the distance, no matter the length of time, no matter the obstacles—I'll always come back to you. Even if I, myself, am not sure if I'll come back—in the end I'll always come back. Cause that's the

Our world is different from the rest.

2009-10-30T04:18:00.000Z

No, no..omg no. This fic is actually getting to me, i've just read the end of chapter 31 and damn, it's so heartbreaking..just earlier i read this part and thought it was so sweet, in a weird way..but still sweet.“No, you really did that. You murmured something in your sleep and got up. I thought you were awake and I asked if you were getting better but you didn’t say anything and just came down

Down down we gotta get down, I want you, come to me boy.

2009-10-29T02:00:00.000Z

Have been at my aunties since monday, dyed my hair last night, and left there early today to get out for the cwalk linkup. Got up and got ready etc..also read some more of wttu :D have been reading it constantly, sitting in my cousin's play room/relaxing room whilst he played on the xbox and screamed at all his friends over the headset whilst i had the laptop propped on the arm of the sofa,

No one said finding Paris would be easy; they only said it would be worth it.

2009-10-26T00:18:00.000Z

Is it wrong, to wish to live in a fiction story? a fanfic, 'Welcome to the Underworld' to be exact.I find that every time i read a fanfic, i always wish that i was that main girl, with the perfect frame, flawless skin and beautiful looks and personality. The one that everyone likes, and then i fall in love with the hot and sexy, but sweet bad guy. And no matter how bad he seems to everyone else,

Can't stop beat won't stop.

2009-10-22T02:49:00.004+01:00

IT IS FINISHED. 2.50am, geography coursework finally finished. I CAN SLEEEEEEP<3 yay. haha~ hm, kind of annoys me how mine is only 63pages when it should vary between 50-80 pages..i mean..70 would've been nice. But i've written enough already.Slept at 5.50am last night, slept for 2 hours then woke up to carry on with my geography. Stayed at home and didn't go into school until lunch, had double

A piece of chocolate pie.

2009-10-21T04:05:00.002+01:00

It's 4.05am, and look, i've been up the whole time doing my geography coursework, haven't finished yet, but i've done 13/24 of it :D i'm tired, but not tired :/ skipping the first two periods tomorrow, and going in at around 11..hopefully i can get some sleep before then~Back to geography then~

The words I couldn’t say before suddenly became lies.

2009-10-18T19:17:00.002+01:00

Fail. Fail. FailYesterday i spent the whole day just on facebook, youtube and soompi. Today, i did the exact same thing. This is pointless, my business coursework is due on tuesday, geography coursework due on wednesday and i can't concentrate...I've only edited the first two paragraphs of my geography, still need to go through all the other parts of it, then find pictures and put all of it

I love that smile on that face and I love you.

2009-10-14T22:00:00.000+01:00

Forgot to blog last 2 days =/Monday -All i remember was that it was a bad day? xD tiring mainly, wasn't really bothered to do anything.Tuesday -Business: An okay lesson, just a lot of work really..English: Had a cover, spent the whole lesson talking to Kamen about hk xDMaths: An okay lesson again, got all the work done i think?Fitness: Spent the lesson outside the fitness room on the exercise

One year after.

2009-10-13T19:47:00.000+01:00

It feels like I've been dreaming for a long timeI've wandered and wandered around for a whileAs if we made a promiseStanding here in front of each other like that day from four seasons agoThose beautiful stories that we wrote down togetherThose eternal promises that we prayed for at that timeThey're all coming back to me now and I don't think my heart can take itI've even restrained myself at the

Never say goodbye, you make me cry.

2009-10-11T21:52:00.000+01:00

Didn't really do much today, watched dream concert perfs<3 hmm, bigbang's ones didn't get broadcasted on request from yg -___-...2pm's perf didn't get broadcasted, but then i watched fancams of both. All good performances, they left Jay's voice in the music, and his space wherever he's meant to be in the perf, was nice...makes me miss him though >

I’ll hold her in my arms and tell her I’ll protect her from sadness.

2009-10-10T23:53:00.000+01:00

Woke up around 9am? looked at my phone, saw a text from KY and a text from Vic, read them both..but then just put my phone down and tried to go back to sleep. Just ended up lying on my bed for ages...got out of bed around 10 or 11? Don't even know haha. Brushed my teeth, washed face, ate breakfast etc~ got ready..went on pc for a while and texted Kamen for a whileGot out the house around 11.30am,

Listen my heart, listen my love, bring me the universe into my heart.

2009-10-08T21:15:00.000+01:00

Short blog, too tired, need to do english and maths work..headache for most of the day today, was just slightly less noticeable.coughs slightly worse? -___-...runny nose..blocked nose now..and walking down stairs feels really weird o___o..it's like i don't really notice how many steps there are anymore..i don't know when i'm meant to expect to be on level ground again..haven't tripped or anything

Think about you all the time, you're so fly, can't deny.

2009-10-07T20:10:00.000+01:00

Woke up at 6 something this morning, went to the toilet, then back to sleep for like..10 mins..then my alarm went off, turned that off..slept for another 15 mins, then my other alarm went off, turned that off, then slept for another 15 mins before finally getting up haha~Got out a tiny bit late, missed my bus..but it was actually RIGHT THERE. I was just on the other side of the road T_T...got on

There ain't no you, there ain't no us, there ain't no maybe someday.

2009-10-06T20:11:00.000+01:00

Bad day. T___T...didn't exactly sleep well, but it was better than the night before when i couldn't even get to sleep. Slept at around 12 something..woke up at like 2am, then slept again and woke up at 6.50am because of my alarm, then slept again until 7.20am. Finally got out of bed and half-rushed getting ready.Got downstairs and was eating breakfast, but just didn't really have appetite? so i

They say a picture is worth a thousand words.

2009-10-04T19:21:00.000+01:00

one –Awkwardness. But it's getting better, don't talk much, but we never really did.two –Awkwardness to the max. Still, now, few to no conversations..and when there are..still awkward.three –Awkwardness exceeding the max even worse than two. Now, we don't even say a word to eachother.four –Awkwardness, but it's getting better a lot quicker, and i'm happy for that. Atleast we can still talk

Believe that we can be like that in the fairytale.

2009-10-04T00:17:00.000+01:00

Today i tried to wake up quite late..ended up just getting out of bed at 10 something? washed my hair and cut it a bit, then got ready~ talked to a few people on msn, left the house at 1 something..waited ages for a bus..and got to the station at 2pm [look at the time, i gotta go it's 2pm! :D]Got my ticket and waited for a train, there werent any to charing cross though, so i just got a cannon

Baby i don't wanna crush on you forever.

2009-09-30T18:44:00.001+01:00

Happy birthday Melody! ^^ made her a wallpaper as a gift? haha~ hope you like it ^^I haven't photoshopped in so long i swear..took me an hour (+ breaks&distractions xD) to make that..and it's not even that good T_T wish i could ps like the pros. bleh.Hmm, school today was okay, same as always really? Lunch was quite funny though..Vanesha was simply being quite racist..but it was so funny, then we

Chemistry like apple and cinnamon.

2009-09-29T21:10:00.001+01:00

Gonna blog this before i do my geography coursework..Sunday, had an alarm set for 7.15am, ended up getting up at 7.55am, brushed my teeth, washed my face, ate breakfast, back upstairs, got changed, did my hair and was out the house by half past 8? checked the bus times wrong, looked on the weekdays, meaning that the bus that was meant to be there at 8.35, wasnt there.Waited ages for a 229, then

I don't wanna be boy, heartbroken, from you.

2009-09-27T22:22:00.000+01:00

Hmmm~ yesterday was good ^^ went to charlton with Kamen in the morning, did some shopping~ i bought a hat and jumper~ Kamen bought Florence's birthday present, then when we got to central, i went and bought Florence's present too~Met up with everyone in trafalgar~ watched the cwalk, messed around..when Troy and Yip got there, i kind of shouted 'YIP!' and he turned around and said hi, but then

Give me one good reason why, we can't just press rewind.

2009-09-26T00:01:00.000+01:00

Have actually been too tired to blog recently, and busy with homework and coursework..and sleep xD so erm..recent update on life~Tuesday..normal school day, went to new look after school, Kamen was going to get her boots..but they didn't have her size so we just randomly tried on shoes..then went home~Wednesday..normal school day, actually cannot remember what happened that day =/...nothing

Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you for me.

2009-09-21T21:39:00.000+01:00

Yesterday i woke up around 11? Didn't really do much..talked to Tze and Joyce..then just waited for Joyce to text me so i could go and pick her up~ went to her house, got her stuff, then she was running around trying to find the sushi roller thingy and the spring onions xD haha, and i was taller than her for a while, had heels on :D mwahahaha~My dad drove us to seewoo, then he gave me £20 and

Now a bit more truthfully, please stop your games.

2009-09-20T13:41:00.001+01:00

Had a quite..in depth coversation with Tze. Talking about how girls might change themselves for a guy and how a girl starts to like a guy...Some girls see a guy, becomes attracted to him, he likes her back, they get together, and thats a perfect story. But how often does something like that happen? Not often at all, really rare actually.Some girls see a guy, becomes attracted to him, he likes her

Life is like a maze.

2009-09-20T02:16:00.000+01:00

I'm in such deep shit?Haven't done any more of my ict cw, and i probably wont get any done tomorrow. Gonna have to really try hard and get it done tomorrow morning..aish.Today was pretty boring..just did my RS and physics homework, printed out the sites sheet for geography, then gave up. Too many analyses to do T_T...Was texting Nick and Joyce, then talking to Tze and Joyce on msn~ haha, theres a

Love letter from my heart, love letter from your smile.

2009-09-18T20:14:00.000+01:00

Pretty good day today~ I slept at 11pm last night, couldn't be bothered to do my ict coursework..and i really wanted more sleep, so i just got into bed early ^^~Woke up at 6.50am from my phone, then i looked over to my alarm clock..and i don't understand, i think i completely read it wrong because i thought it stopped working, and the time was completely off, so i just got up, didn't want to risk

Already in motion, it's emotion.

2009-09-17T18:58:00.004+01:00

Woke up at 7.35am today, had to be out the house by 7.45am..was rushing so much, ate my breakfast in 4minutes LOL FOR 4 MINUTE GIRL~ got on the bus, went to school..had assembly T_T was so boring~Then had double english, had a cover teacher aswell..just copied up my original writing story~ whilst talking to Kamen. She got nothing done at all. She started to copy up hers aswell, then she wanted to

Because my heart might become weak, I might reveal my worn out self.

2009-09-16T18:55:00.000+01:00

Honestly, i barely remember what happened today because i was so tired the whole time..slept around 12am last night..slept in a bit and rushed to get ready at 7.30am..had assembly..no idea what it was about..i just remember Dr Lodwick starting off with 'I'll start the assembly from 5000 miles away' and then i already lost interest.Double physics..not bad, just did a lot of writing, then an

I don't know if you'll be back.

2009-09-16T17:36:00.001+01:00

An interview with Park Jaebum's father's friend.I am a parent of someone that is close to Jaybum’s age. Watching what has been happening these past few days, I have built up some confidence to say a few words. I have been business partners with Jaybum’s dad in Seattle and am a Korean-America who has been living here for 30 years. I have known Jaybum since he was a little kid and have watched him

I'm just playing hard to get.

2009-09-16T16:34:00.000+01:00

..Are you freaking serious? You’re way too into this, i’m like that too, but i don’t go around saying it. You try to get someone to ask if he’s completely in love with you. WHAT? You do that? Get yourself sorted woman. -____-And coming straight up with 'mine and his star signs attract!!' then go on about him all day. Keep it to yourself, it's really not that necessary.

So much about this crazy game they call love.

2009-09-15T20:34:00.000+01:00

The weather sucks. It's cold, and wet, and makes everyone feel like shit :)Lunch was pretty funny again~ still the fight between the group, but atleast i'm on the side that are still enjoying themselves ^^~After school we went looking for shoes again~ I think Kamen's decided on the mid-length boots from newlook~ then went to superdrug, Kamen wanted to get dry shampoo, but now she's going to get

Why can't I love you in slow motion?

2009-09-14T20:23:00.000+01:00

It's been a really good day today, despite the huge lack of sleep. Got up pretty quickly since i wasn't really sleeping properly in the first place..and my hair wasn't a complete mess :D looked just presentable..ended up straightening it anyway~ went downstairs..ate breakfast~ packed a good lunch ^^ watermelon, banana, orange and a salmon roll~ came in school slightly late? not sure if i made it

I'm trying to forget you.. trying to forget you.. trying to erase you...

2009-09-14T17:41:00.001+01:00

I can't sleep. It's fucking 5.30am and i haven't slept properly..tossing and turning the whole night, i have too much on my mind when theres nothing to be on my mind. I'm up waiting when theres nothing for me to wait for..almost nothing.Why did i go and make it big? It should've stayed small then completely vanished..but everything you do, everything people say makes it grow even bigger, it's

Without even realizing, my heart keeps getting lost searching for you...

2009-09-13T21:35:00.000+01:00

Wow, had to completely rush to do my homework...but i've actually finished my german questions =D i just need to find my text book at school and copy up the last 2 i have in there~ didn't do my ict, thats just too long..i'll do it tomorrow maybe..did some of my physics..barely any really..then i remembered that we have that time to do work before lessons start tomorrow =D some weird silent work

Why wasn't I able to take your hand?

2009-09-13T14:07:00.001+01:00

So much sadness and depression around recently...affects the people around you, i think. But i'm glad that i have some people who just keep me happy through the day, just talking to them lifts my mood. Maybe i shouldn't sit here playing sad songs the whole day...but they just sound so good, and have such a nice tune to sing to~I don't have many reasons to be depressed, me and my parents are on

The words begin to overflow, but I know they won't reach you now.

2009-09-13T01:32:00.001+01:00

Songs can really set your mood..i've been listening to DBSK - Why Did I Fall In Love With You? on repeat for hours now...meaningful song i guess. Songs can make you think a lot...and when its a song like this you just always end up reflecting on something..happier songs just make you want to dance~Haven't done any of my coursework, spent the code day coding this layout..looks relatively okay i

Take it, want it, let me know it, it could be mine.

2009-09-12T01:01:00.001+01:00

Freaking depression yet still happy feeling. What the hell.Appearance, it's such a complicated thing..but also something that people can't leave out. Atleast mainly from a girl's point of view, appearance is used to impress, express, and for confidence. I doubt someone would want to go clubbing in a royal ascot inspired outfit...so thats why people can spend hours picking out their clothes, and

Love at the gate.

2009-09-09T19:48:00.005+01:00

Woke up today, turned the alarm off on my phone and saw that i got a text from Nick sayingSorry didnt say bye. Might nt be working tomorrow so maybe msn tomoro x nighthaha, i thought it was cute of him to text me that ^^ got out of the house on time! saw Rex getting off at boiler house aswell xD was texting him and Kamen..and Kamen was telling me how she was waiting for over 20mins for the 269,

We're just like this.

2009-09-07T21:10:00.003+01:00

First day of school..wasn't the best? mainly just tired i guess, was watching Burning Flames 3 last night until around 3something? didn't sleep until past 3.50am, and i kept waking up randomly..and got up at 6.50am..not much sleep at all T_T texted Nick when i woke up, kind of moaning about my bad sleep haha xD ended up rushing a bit because i thought i was going to be late..got on a bus a bit

All the pain that's been wrecking my brain, getting so close to going insane.

2009-09-06T19:45:00.004+01:00

Bye summer, hello school.Went to yumcha today in HKC. Now i'm so full, but all i had to eat&drink today was dimsum, water, tea, more water, a few pringles and an orange. Got home and started on my coursework, did all of my location bit, which i thought i would never finish. Finished the last part of my aims, guiding questions and predictions..just need to do the purpose, background info and

Aha aha, baby baby call me.

2009-09-06T11:33:00.003+01:00

Because Troy's a gay and wants more mentions, here's a post for him :)I LOVE YOU TROY ABRACADABRA ADDICT ABEY :D see you once your hair grows back D: haha, learn the abracadabra, sorry sorry, again and again, and and other dances properly :D then the next time i see you, you can show them all to me haha~ <3

I love you, only you, I need you.

2009-09-05T22:43:00.004+01:00

Hmm, last night i was texting Tze and Nick, then Nick fell asleep so i was going to pull an allnighter texting Tze..but then i fell asleep too haha xD SORRY TZE! xDWoke up..i don't even know what time i woke up -____- but it was around 8? then i slept for longer..and got up at around 10? had cha siw bao for breakfast ^___^ then got ready really early..changed my clothes so many times T__T then i

I believe this feeling is true, babe.

2009-09-04T20:16:00.003+01:00

TZETZE MA! i love you muimui<3 we'll stress in year11, and complain about the amount of homework and coursework and focus together and then text through classes because we're gay like that :) Damn, school is so soon..and i still havent finished my geography coursework..gonna have to get that done. I'll probably do more tonight, and then do some tomorrow, and work my arse off on sunday for it.

Real talk, I love you so much I feel the rush.

2009-09-03T21:52:00.006+01:00

Went shopping today..didn't really buy much..and i couldn't find any nice skirts for school T_T..decided i was just going to wear the tie collar shirts for school instead..and just buy a new skirt..got shoes and socks today..and a watch ^^~Talked to Kamen and Joyce on the phone today aswell, kept telling Kamen to do her coursework haha, then was just kind of..having a mini catch up with Joyce~

Lose control, take hold of the sound.

2009-09-03T00:57:00.003+01:00

Last night was so messed up..i was online but not online..had msn up, but then i went for a quick nap..woke up..replied on msn..slept again..replied again..then slept again, and then when i woke up..it was 4am T__T had to turn off my pc then go and brush my teeth..then sleep~~Woke up around 10am or so? then stayed in bed for a while before getting up..washed my hair and stuff and got ready for

Wo xi huan ni, dan shi ni bu hui xi huan wo.

2009-09-01T20:18:00.007+01:00

Today I woke up around 9.45am..slept for half an hour and woke up..then slept for another 15mins then actually got up. After eating breakfast i was just texting people to try and sort out Bluewater...everyone was running late though, they missed the original 12.23 train..so they got on the 12.53 train..I got ready and got my dad to take me to the station..but then there was a small queue for the

Tell it to my heart.

2009-09-01T00:24:00.003+01:00

Was on oovoo last night..talked to Kamen on the phone for a while..then was in bed texting Nick..funny&kinky night haha..then he stopped replying..guess he fell asleep xDSorted out my itunes today..i have 907 korean songs haha xD need to sort out my ipod..but i have so many lyrics and stuff on it..blehs =/ sorted out tomorrow aswell! even thought there were a lot of problems in between..but

You don't know what a girl wants.

2009-08-31T00:32:00.003+01:00

Today i went to Jen's house, mainly just relaxing with cousins :) played ddr and some other games, talked, ate and watched movies, was a good day..did a lot of talking..caught up on stuff..haha.Was texting Andrew today aswell, and he actually replied to my texts haha, was quite a deep convo..ish..tried to convince him of some stuff..hopefully he'll listen to me..I was also texting Nick, he woke

Now, I won't ever give myself to you.

2009-08-29T20:55:00.005+01:00

Last night i was on oovoo until 3something, talking to Nick, Tze, KY and Troy..wasn't really talking on oovoo..but everyone was having dmcs on msn xD talked to Tze about her past boyfriends and stuff..talked to Nick about relationship stuff..mine and Troy's convo was half random and half dead haha, and KY's convo was just random, and then he went and said this;(03:09) - Ky ~ King -: what r u gna

Don`t wanna be your toy it's enough now.

2009-08-28T22:30:00.003+01:00

Woke up at 7am this morning...have no idea why, ended up going back to sleep a bit then waking up, then sleeping then waking up over and over...got up around 10am. Was waiting for my results for ages, finally got then though, and i'm pretty satisfied ^^A* in ChineseA in ScienceIt's the same as what Joyce got ^^ was talking to Kamen, Joyce, Florence, Carmen and Nick this morning..then went to

I love you, I'm locked, I'm hurt, I'm going crazy.

2009-08-27T23:27:00.006+01:00

Today was quite rushed really...woke up at 12pm thinking it was still early because i didn't get a wake up call from Carmen..(wanted to go up central early and play pump whilst troc was still empty..but then when we go there, there were too many people so i didn't wanna play anymore)..ran downstairs with my phone in my hand and looked for the post, wasn't there..so i went to eat breakfast and

Dance with my love in my dreams.

2009-08-27T02:17:00.004+01:00

50th entry...woke up just before 12 today, replied to Vic's text and got up, didn't do anything at all today..just 3 paragraphs of writing for geography...need the office 07 disk, hopefully Jenny remembers to bring it out~ downloaded music today, Brown Eyed Girls', Kara's and Baek Jiyoung's albums..really like the songs 중독, 마법 and 몰래몰래~ really nice tune and lyrics. I watched the Abracadabra MV

I think I love you, that's how it seems.

2009-08-25T18:53:00.005+01:00

Thinking about you constantly, worrying about you and missing you, I really, I was really hurting. Loving someone hurts and it's tiring but it's not something I could stop, going to you, I can't stop that. I love you, as much as the entire universe exploding, as much as the waters in every ocean drying, with my spirit burst as much as it spreads outward. I love you very much. 너 많이 사랑해Lee Youngjae

Me and you hardcore, until you say no more.

2009-08-25T13:53:00.002+01:00

Yesterday I did some of my geography coursework...finished the star graphs and maps of influence..then i gave up :D was trying to do the shop surveys, but the pdf file for Canary Wharf shops is too confusing so i'll leave it for later. Tze's planning beach, houseparty and sleepover for tomorrow...my mum wont let me go to the sleepover though T__T so then theres not much point going..since i'll

My tragic love is tiring and always goes wrong.

2009-08-24T19:06:00.002+01:00

I. Just. Don't. Know. I feel like i'm depressed but happy at the same time? thing just keep happening..something good, then something bad, then something good again, then something bad again. it's getting me all confused and i don't even know what i'm doing anymore. i don't want things to turn out how they did last time...so i was thinking of more 'just let it all go, nothing's going to happen

I really like you, really really like you.

2009-08-24T01:47:00.004+01:00

Woke up today and went to wash my hair...got ready to go out for lunch...was texting Crystal on the way there~ went to river view...ate, played ds, played big2..stayed there until around 6? then went home and went on the pc~ talked to Crystal, Nick, Vic, Tze, Jenny, Cindy and Kevin. Nick was trying to work out what my pm meant xD 'niga neomu joha~ neomu neomu joha~' he worked it out in the end

Even if the love is the costly price to pay.

2009-08-23T02:20:00.002+01:00

Today was quite dead..wasn't planning to go out but then i went out at around 5..met up with Andrew and then got the train with him to charing cross..got there at 5.30 and met up with everyone else~ then we went to boots so Carmen could buy some hairspray, then i got some hair products too...3 for £10 toni&guy ^__^~ then we went over to traf to meet up with Andrew..cos he went to see his cwalkers

I keep sending small glimpses towards you.

2009-08-21T18:28:00.003+01:00

Hmm..slept at 4am last night..woke up at 7.50am this morning...thought it was around 11 =/ so then i went to the toilet then went back to sleep again xD then later my mum woke me up so she could vacuum my room -__-'' did some cleaning..now my room is all tidy ^___^ looked at all the pics from wednesday ^___^ i look so weird in some of them..but they're still all good pics ^__^~ talked to Melody

The way he never spoke at times, that our relationship was becoming solitary.

2009-08-20T22:24:00.010+01:00

Didn't do much today...went on comp...talked to Jenny, Crystal, Carmen, Ken and Kamen on msn...was trying to go out...but there wouldnt've been much point since people were out at 4..and then having a drink up at 7..but i'd have to leave at 7..waited for my mum to get home so i could ask her if i could sleep over at Crystal's house..so then i could go out for later..but she said no -__- i knew

The moment I saw you, I'm falling in love with you boy.

2009-08-19T20:18:00.007+01:00

Today was good~ Andrew and Jason just managed to get on the same train as me, played cards whilst on the train..got off at london bridge and then went to find Kevin, went to buy his train ticket..Andrew went and took half of my bracelets, so now we have 3 each xD we walked back..but then we found out that Crystal was where Kevin was earlier..so we had to go BACK there again and meet up with

My dream disappeared, my mind lost.

2009-08-18T20:19:00.008+01:00

Spent the whole day doing my nails..still haven't quite finished..did one style, with pink and purple tips, and a silver line..but then i thought they looked weird, and i found my nail stickers..so i took it all off and did french pink tips on all but 2 fingers, and put the nail varnish on the whole nail for the odd 2, then put the stickers on those nails~Going out tomorrow~ get to see Jenny ^^

I want to let go of your hand now.

2009-08-17T23:29:00.002+01:00

Finished doing my nails..nail art is hard...the dots went a bit weird..i did the silver line better on the other hand, but the dots and star was really messed up..so i just got the pic of the right hand instead..bored. Jess, Justin and Kamen should all be on their way to hk right now~ gonna miss them~

If you’re going to be like this, why me?

2009-08-17T18:25:00.003+01:00

Woke up quite early today..brushed my teeth and went downstairs and ate breakfast..back up stairs to go on pc..nothing much to do..started texting Jess~ and took off my nail varnish. Started my catch up of burning flames 3 Chrissi came around with her mum and brother, and they brought kfc XD ate some of it then went upstairs and just talked then watched more of burning flames 3 then they left and

Don't ask me and get away.

2009-08-16T18:11:00.005+01:00

Haven't done much today at all..woke up a bit before 12..realised my parents weren't home..went on the pc for a bit then brushed my teeth and went downstairs to eat breakfast/lunch, talked to Justin on msn, and talked to Kamen aswell..changed the layout on this~ looks more colorful than the last one..last night i slept at 4am because i was trying to work out how to set the post links..finally

I do not think like you, let him stay to enjoy the byes.

2009-08-16T12:35:00.005+01:00

Ha, my dream last night was nice, but awkward. Someone mentioned about me and Yip again..and i started getting kinda pissed off..so i walked off and hid behind a machine..(we were in like..another version of troc) when i stood up and turned around, Andrew was standing there..he walked over to me and made a crying motion and lifted his arm in front of me..instead of using his arm, i hugged him

You're welcome, let me go...

2009-08-15T22:52:00.012+01:00

Went to Joyce's memorial party today..was sad at the beginning..with the slide shows, photos and speeches, but the end was better, when everyone was drawing on the balloons and putting down their messages for Joyce..rest in peace.Afterwards, when we got back to charing cross, i went to meet everyone else...wasn't planning to go out..but i just ended up having enough time to stay out for a while..

Can you move over? excuse me, miss.

2009-08-13T01:37:00.000+01:00

Got home early this morning..landed around 11.35pm last night..then got home around 1.30am..spain was good~ really hot though..now i'm kind of dark..need lightening cream =/+ 0308Went to the airport quite early..walked around inside and stuff then ate at frankie&benny's until it was time for our flight..bought a pair of earphones at dixons before we got on the plane. Arrived in spain around 7pm

Because my heart is damaged, i can't even breathe.

2009-08-03T02:38:00.000+01:00

Did more packing today..watched an episode of family outing, dled 12 eps for spain..wont be blogging for around 10 days now..hopefully spain will be good~ and i hope i don't miss too much in uk...can already see plans for going out >< gonna miss the cwalk linkup aswell..don't want to sleep..but i have nothing to do..blehs. nothing to blog about, so this is it until i come back~

Saying that i'll cry just for one day, that i'll empty you out.

2009-08-01T22:29:00.001+01:00

Spent the day at home..went on the pc for a while..Chrissi came around..just talking, played big2 and baked a cake~ when she left i just went back on the pc..the cynosure family project gifts were posted~ my gifts look so pro~ i wonder who made them..been obsessed with Navi's song Heart Damage<3 Cindy's back now~ but i can't see her until 15th ): leaving to go to Spain on monday..will be online

You're my true love.

2009-07-31T01:35:00.001+01:00

Didn't blog yesterday..and now i can't actually remember what i did...probably because i didn't do anything except watch up to episode 8 of burning flames 3 :D it's so good, like..omg. BOSCO WONG<3 KEVIN CHEUNG<3 yumyumyum. keke~ wednesday night i finished the cynosure family project gifts too..posted under the cut~ i think the icons were okay..wallpaper failed..i think i'll just do banners next

Even if I look at you again, you are my love.

2009-07-30T01:43:00.000+01:00

Went to central today..woke up later than usual again..11am ^__^ was getting ready and stuff but i ended up being late..had to wait more that 20mins for a 229 aswell, so i missed a lot of trains..ended up getting a fast train to charing cross..got there at 2pm, 1 hours late >< met Carmen, Rex and his friend..me and Carmen went to oxford..saw Vietanh, Kamen and Joyce aswell..on the way we went to

I love you..I promise..

2009-07-26T22:01:00.000+01:00

Today i woke up at 6.35am..but then went to sleep again until around 9am..last night Carmen organised going to westfield..washed my hair and got ready..and ate a BIG bowl of 云吞面~ filled me up so much i couldn't even finish it..ended up being late meeting people..but Kevin was the only one who was actually there so it was alright ^___^ went to hk cafe and sat there whilst we waited..Carmen and Ray

Not knowing my heart.

2009-07-25T20:37:00.000+01:00

At home nows~ slept really well last night~ would've gotten up a bit later but everyone was awake already..so i thought i'd might aswell get up too. Got ready to go out straight away..went to the golf course place so Oliver could play golf..me, my auntie and my mum went inside and had breakfast. It was so pretty there~ outside you could see the golf course the grass was really green and there

Don't say you love me if you're not quite sure if you'll take it back.

2009-07-24T23:34:00.002+01:00

At my cousins..got here around 3..played river flows in you on their pretty white piano ^____^~ got my hair cut aswell..i showed my auntie a picture of the ulzzang Mikki, and said to do her hair. I think it turned out quite nice~ keke, it's thinner now aswell, so much easier to style and straighten. I always use the pc here..since they have another one upstairs and my older cousin is out, and the

Lingering is your voice.

2009-07-23T01:02:00.000+01:00

Went up central today, got up quite early like always..washed my hair and stuff, wore my new shorts ^__^ was gonna do my hair slightly curly..try-to-be-ulzzang style..but then it wasn't really working so i gave up and put my hair in plaits~ when i was getting ready..these little kids kept throwing a ball into my garden..had to go out TEN times to throw it back over the wall -___- took my time

River flows in you.

2009-07-21T23:43:00.000+01:00

didn't do much today..woke up around 10 and played ds for an hour and a half i think? then got up and went on the pc for a while..ate breakfast then went back upstairs and started to learn river flows in you..now i've learnt all of it except the left hand..since my keyboards too small to play both hands at the same time..and i fail at playing with both hands..ahahs xD got tomorrows day sorted out

Where are you wrong?

2009-07-20T23:56:00.000+01:00

Today i woke up really early..didn't sleep for long since i got into bed around 3..and played ds until 5 and then slept til 8/9 xD heard the tv on downstairs, so i went to ask my mum if i could go out today, she asked me where i was going and i told her i was going to central..then because of the whole swine flu thing she said i could only go to central once this week..either today, or wednesday.

I'm looking for that someone, could you be for me?

2009-07-19T00:13:00.000+01:00

This morning i got up quite early, still used to school times..stayed in bed until around 8..then i got up and went to the toilet..was planning to go back to sleep..but i ended up going on the pc and started watching a drama..quite good, watched an episode and a bit before having to go and get ready to go out..ate breakfast and washed my hair..kind of styled it so it was slightly curlyish =/ got

Break free, taking back my control.

2009-07-18T00:28:00.000+01:00

Last day of school today, was good..normal stuff at school..ended up going to the front of the hall to collect my player of the tournament certificate LOL. After school Kamen, Florence and I went to chinatown..took sticker photos, got Kamen's phone unlocked and then we spent the rest of the day walking up and down oxford st trying to find a bag..ended up just refunding my other one and that was

I'll steal both of your eyes' gazes and spill them in my heart.

2009-07-16T22:27:00.000+01:00

oops..forgot to blog for the past few days..Tried to pull an allnighter on sunday night..had to get my english, geography and chemistry done..ended up doing all of my english and half of my geography but then i fell asleep. LOLYesterday was enterprize day, got into groups and created an outfit from materials the school provided..i think ours went quite well~In the past few days i haven't really

Again, I spent the whole day gripping onto my phone.

2009-07-13T22:36:00.000+01:00

Tried to pull an allnighter last night, must've fell asleep a few times then after around 4.30am i gave up and slept, only ended up finishing my english and doing half of my geography. Woke up at 6.40am and got ready for school..camerawhored a bit aswell LOL. Got into school at 8.45am, just in time for registration, german was first..was okay..just boring and Mr Symes was trying to act all nice

I feel it all day, smiles without sincerity.

2009-07-12T00:15:00.000+01:00

Good day today, just kind of tiring..woke up really early but tried going back to sleep..got up around 8, ate breakfast and got ready to go out..left the house at 10...was on time and everything but somehow managed to miss the train..got a train going to cannon st instead and then got on Joyce's train to get to charing cross..met up with Kamen, went to china town so she could get cha siw bao, and

My heart begins to hurt, I guess it still loves you.

2009-07-10T22:15:00.000+01:00

Today, i woke up with aches and pains in my legs, arms, arse and across my stomach..stupid rounders. Was texting Kamen in the morning, then asked my mum if i could take the day off since there was nothing important going on today, but she didn't let me ffs. Took my time getting ready..was eating breakfast slowly aswell and my mum offered to take me to school..so i just walked around upstairs

Take it slow, follow the rhythm.

2009-07-09T19:23:00.000+01:00

Last night i was texting Joyce for a while, but then she went to sleep so i did aswell. Got up around 6.40am today, did 50 leg raises before getting out of bed, got ready for school and took my time eating breakfast, got out and took the 229 to school..had the rounders interform tournament today, was quite good, for our first match Miss Greener kept telling me i was bowling well keke, but i swear

Can you please take away all the promises you made?

2009-07-08T22:29:00.000+01:00

Got up later today again..took my time getting ready for school..didn't want to eat my breakfast so i just had a lemon cake slice and walked out. I could've gotten the 601, but I decided to wait for a 401 instead, but none were coming and i didn't want to have to rush like I did yesterday because my leg kinda fucked up and then i couldn't walk properly..so i just got on the 229 and got to school

Each day I need your love.

2009-07-07T22:53:00.000+01:00

boring day, got up later..took my time getting ready..got the late 401, killed my feet speedwalking to the busstop in bh and into school..turns out my form were still sitting outside..had assembly, then debriefing for 4 lessons..so long seriously..dr.lodwich started screwing at me because of the origami on my desk..she was like 'you have time to be folding origami?' and i was like 'it's not mine.